Left Mai and Margaret at the dock gates, very sorrowfully, for I realised their helplessness, Yet I knew of Mai's capabilities to get on somehow. I was heartbroken to leave them but for some reason could not say so. Longing, as I intended to do, wanted to do, say what was on my mind. The longing that I had to turn back.
After I had passed through I looked back, hoping yet fully knowing that I should not see them for a long while. So I passed on to my ship and started work at once.
